aware and a sense of dejavu , memmory

i had twelve trees( mara malli trees) on my second floor in a short 4 x 8 x 4 feet tank like garden ...been nurturing them for over 15 years...an year back took them all down and replanted tthem on the road side...tendered for them fr another 4 months....guess what only one survived !!!...all the rest just withered one by one ...didnt know what? i live on a very busy noisy road,and electricity cables run underground...so when they withered...i was so sad :-(

and my friend micheal kato said:Trees are very delicate creatures, indeed. I can really relate, Kabbir. So sad. But they don't like to be transplanted, really, do they? When you think about it, why would you enjoy being uprooted and replanted? From what I've learned, when you uproot a tree, you end up damaging about 30% of the roots, generally. This is pretty close to the number that is the upper limit to survival. When you replant seedlings, that are raised just a bit, their roots are delicate, but not so "formed" so that they adapt well to their new homes. Sounds a lot like kids - it is a lot harder for the ones that reach adolescence when circumstances force a move. I've only planted a few here at my home, but I've sponsored more outside. The ones in our yard, though, are our babies...

yes...micheal...in one way,i did the most stupid act of replanting them else where,but my intension was to make my road a bit more green and shady...awww...indians are really not so concious i guess...sad...but i learnt a very valuable lesson....i hug the lone tree,almost daily ^_^

micheal kato reassured me with the following words:o no, you tried to do a very good thing! It is difficult, though. Trees have two kids of roots, in a sense. They have the big ones, which are pretty easy to tell, and lots of really tiny ones. These are pretty much impossible not to damage when transplanting. You are doing a wonderful thing - hugging the tree! :) I am sure that the tree loves you!

...thanks for being there folks i continued,...indians in india...have a very emrassingly low awarness on trees in general....:-(....i will love to be part of earth day.,ofcourse....but if you ask for a group to join fr a cause....hhmmm...then this story will turn soar...also i run the risk of being the case of balloon seller who is at a mall holding the last balloon to be sold of....it will be sheer comical.

in a society which cares "this works"...in a stupid sensless society like in here...like going behind sensational movie stars,or a murder story, an ambitiously tall talk of prosperity, BIG SMOKE BELLOWING TRUCKS AND CARS...give me a break...who cares 2 hoots for trees ,this attitude is REAL :-(

here you will find so many willing to teach,run free schools,colleges collect donations for a cause...they even have spiritual groups,their heads giving speeches in the UN floor.....awww...ask them to practisce what they said.....it will be like searching for water on the saharan sands for results....sorry...i am being a bit pungent on collective attitudes ;-)

micheal as you all know is very sensitive so he added:But attitudes can and do change. This takes time, but people cannot bear pain endlessly. When the Earth is screaming that it cannot survive the damage we are inflicting upon it, when nature cannot support all of us that depend upon it, when we must fight each other for every gift it bestows upon us, then most everyone will realize that we must change our ways. My hope is that people will realize this before the end is near, but when its direction is clear.

so i had this to support myself with:

i do hope with you...oh i do....really,knowing this too well within me ,deep inside...that this homosapien spiecies has done a mad run at break neck speed towards its own extinction,and in comparison to any other species on this planet...given the same time. :-(

i really dont care anymore...it doesnt matter....honestly i am practicising techniques where i may be able to leave my body consiously....as the few ancient civilizations have done...i know this may look a bit too far fetched.( and i have tasted sucess a few times)..do i have any choice...hhhmmm i do not ...if time were to be one long unbroken continum where past -present-future resides,and as the particle physics hypothesis indicates...then all is fine...

there was this sufi saint" kabir"with whom i share the name,he said this...path presupposes distance,verily it makes me laugh to know that the fish in water is athirst...well too honest and so brutally plain.

a few things about me you might not have possibiliy known..i am a reiki master,healer,and a accupunturist of both chinese and korean techniques,i am trained in indian medicinal herbs and in raja yoga meditation techniques....i know this...no medicine heals,but the thought ,that "this"medicine heals,heals...so infact...i know what is conciousness...i have manipulated it...i know what is death...i have conciously died at least three times...this life time,i have manipulated my dreams,i have had many astral travels,met many angels...both in dreams...in the light worlds,and also in this form world...

no ,iam not imagining all this...i know i exist...because i beleive so.i am fully aware of souls and reincarnation of various levels of existance.this knowledge and its practisce is fully known from my birth,i carried in my inner most core of my being...call it D N A..or R N A. ^_^

i have taken on this earth plane more than 160 life times....my first life started some 30,000 years back as an aborigine(NOMAD) in the east central african plate which moved away from the asian plate,i belong to a group of 50 people who were herding cattle and we were nomads,in this life i have already met some 20 of my group.